I feel like I'm not going anywhere. I haven't been concentrating on my schoolwork. Idk. I'm scared I'm not going to get where I want in life..Maybe I should try harder in school. I have all As and Bs so I'm not really that worried. It's just my complete lack of effort and not caring at all that makes me feel like shit.
Blah, I ate too much today. Shits going on.
******* is moving this Friday. I've been talking to a few guys.. One I haven't seen since, like, last year and I gave him a hug today. He told me I looked cute with my short hair :) I totally forgot about my Britney moment since it was a while ago. Maybe it will go somewhere with him. I just want to actually have someone. Not just be talking to people. I want some kind of stable thing, not just hooking up, you know? People don't seem to think that I have problems with this because I'm always "talking" to people but they don't ever seem to notice that I can't ever GET anyone :/ Blehh.
Ohmygod. I finished my project for Health Science but I don't even think I'm going to do the one for English. Fuck it. FUCK IT! I have an A.
I don't feel as bad about eating as I used to since I've been exercising. I've been doing like 100 crunches and some sit ups and shit. That's not even a lot.. But I used to never work out at all so I have to start somewhere, you know? It's a lot easier to keep going when I'm exercising than to stopp myself from eating something completely. So I could just make up for it later. It'd be good to get eating under control though. I noticed that when I drink a lot of sparkling flavored water I don't get hungry and its 0cal. So whabam. I think I've found what I'll be carrying around with me for the next 2390483490 days.
I love you guys. Reading your blogs really keep me going. I don't think I would have even been able to keep trying for this long without you all. Reading what you all are going through makes me feel like I'm not alone in this. It really helps. I love you bitches. :)
Haha. I'm going to go get some rest. Fuck English.
Night.
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2 comments:
I ♥ your blog! I never have much to say in comments, but I'm out here reading!
stay safe! ♥
Fuck English indeed.
My coursework has been lying on my table for the past week... not being done.
And I totally understand what you mean about school. It's the same for me. I've had exams recently and just... not fucked them up; but I just don't care about failing.
Odd eh?
xox
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