Ayteen.

I got braces on today. Woo.
I ate too much. I shouldn't because it hurts but I just felt like eating today. I'm so stupid.. Blah. I weighed myself and I'm just above 110. I've lost weight, but I've gained mass. Is that even possible?

7teen,

Ohmygod! I'm a total slut. You don't even want to know.
I had sex today for the first time in like almost 3 months since I broke up with my ex. Omfg the floodgates have opened and the drought is gone, hallelujah! I'm not going to go into detail though because you don't need to hear it. Haha. Hes quite a bit older than me though.. Eek. Like what happened today was totally illegal.
But, anyway, I weighed myself and I was about the same. I've been eating these protein bars as meal replacements for breakfast and I'm going to have them for lunch too. They help alot. & I don't have access to diet pills or anything, so I'm hoping this will help me lose some. I'm feeling pretty fat..






& For some reason VS pictures work really well for me too.. So you'll probably see a lot of those randomly.








Yawn. I'm tired.
Going to bed.

16,

I've been feeling really good today. I had a piano recital, got my hair cut, and hung out with some friends. Pretty cool. I guess. Ha.
I'm going to buy some drink mixes next time I go grocery shopping with my mom. Those usually fill me up. I'll start bringing them to school so I can have that for lunch instead of the fattening foods they usually have. I need to lose some weight because I'm talking to this guy, and I don't want to be all nasty if anything happens ;) Wooo! lol. I'll start by eliminating chips from my diet, haha, like I need to be eating those anyway.

15,

I'm such a fatass. I feel like I'm about to die.
I don't know why but I've been eating a whole lot after I get home from school lately. I need to find things to do to like distract myself :/ + drink a lot of water.
God.. I miss my ribs :( I'm going to carry around a water tomorrow and drink it all day. That should keep me full.
Ttyl bitches.

Fourteennn

I broke up with him and did the worst thing possible. I laughed. I was nervouss and I didn't really know what I was doing so after I told him I thought we should just be friends, I kind of laughed a little. He texted me later that period and told me he didn't go to work and he was just crying and shit. He said that he was falling for me and crap. I guess that just means it's better I did it now rather than later, right?! I shouldn't feel that bad. It is better to have done this rather than to have led him on!
Tomorrow I have the day off of school, hmm. Idk what I'm going to do. Some of my friends want to go to a movie and then the mall but I don't have a date and its a "date" thing. Blehh how am I supposed to find a guy by tomorrow? I won't. I've been getting fat lately. I haven't been really working that hard because there isn't anyone really to impress. So bleh. I won't eat lunch tomorrow at school. I'll have something for breakfast with my coffee.. but not much. I'll just try to work it down little by little.
If you guys have any tips on how to not eat even though you're hungry (or just bored, bad habit I know.) Please leave them in the comments, k? I usually just drink a lot of tea and brush my teeth.. The nice "just brushed" feeling makes me not want to ruin it with food. Haha.

13,

Umm, I'm going to break up with my boyfriend on Monday. He's an asshole. And a bad kisser. A month has been too long, I don't know why I stuck with him this long. Ugh.
I'm disgusting. I've been gaining weight, I can feel it :( I'm going to the mall tomorrow and I'm going to have a coffee there, but other than that, I'm not eating tomorrow. I need to lose a few.

12

I ate too much today, as usual. Last weekend was pretty good. I was superr busy. It was homecoming, and as a member of student government, I had to go to every single thing they did. The game was on Friday, and I had to stay for most of it. Saturday was the homecoming dance, and that was really fun. I danced with a few guys ;) One of them being my best friends ex. Ha. I probably shouldn't have done that. She doesn't really seem to mind though, or at least she's not showing it.
Dieting is so hardd.